It is easy to grow impatient when we need something desperately. I am now a Survivor, NED, No Evidence of Disease/ Remission/ Cancer Free. Did I say cancer free? On a visit with my oncologist I asked her the question, "In my case, what terms can I use after the completion of my treatments?" "Can I use Cancer Free, NED, or Remission?" She responded that I could use any of these terms.I am still getting followup MRI's and Mammograms. At the last mammogram, I waited for the technician to say I was clear to go. The technician appeared at the door and said they needed to take more images and she would be ready for me in a minute. A minute seems like a short period of time but forever when you want some answers. While waiting, for 1 second I had myself back at testing and chemotherapy. I didn't like what my brain was thinking. I took a deep breath and told myself to hold on. The technician took some more views and then I was cleared to go.
I can only believe that God has a plan for me and He will reveal it in Divine Time. I will have to learn this as I go to each follow-up appointment with apprehension.
